I'm STUCK in the PLACE you LEFT Me.

Magandang Araw!

You can notice that in my previous posts, I am using my native language Filipino. The very single reason is that, I want to make my story as honest as possible, as truthful as possible with the best of my knowledge and experience not that i cannot do it in English but I want to express the entirety of my feelings while I am narrating the events.

Its been almost 3 weeks now since the last time that Jona and I talked and I can say that until this very moment, I'm still not getting into the process of moving on. I'm still stuck on the place where Jona left me. I'm still there, expecting for a miracle that one of this day, Jona will come back and will try to fix everything. I can't move, I can't breath easily, I can't help but cry every time my brain will go to the part of my memories that I am with Jona, all our sweet moments, our out of towns, our funny moments everything and what hurts me even more is that I don't know how in this life will I ever find the way to finally say goodbye and forget her.

Waiting in Vain. . :(

I've been to so many challenges in my life but how come this one seems to be very different. That feeling that it seems that I still have unfinished business with her, that feeling that it seems that I have this regret that what if, what if i became more positive during our time, maybe we are still together.

I just wish that sooner, I will be able to find the way to finally start the process, to finally realize that Jona will not come back anymore, get up again and start to walk  even though it kills me coz I know that sooner it will be worth it. I wish to love myself even more specially this time that I feel so alone.

I wish. . . .

Jona, I miss you so much and I still Love You So Much, Please help me forget you and finally let you go,

-Rodel