In My Experience: 2016

Monday, December 19, 2016

12:51

The title of the article doesn't really reflects anything on the contents. Its just the title of the song that are playing during the time that I am writing this article. Hope this serves as an example that sometimes, it doesn't matter how you look like or how the others sees you, what is essential is invisible to the naked eye.

You know what, many people will attest to the fact that I am really kind. Yes, from my family, real friends, my aufaks barkada (college tropa), my EMPIRE friends, my Accenture family even my Hewlett Packard Enterprise Service family and currently my Indra Philippines family.I am confident that they can be united in one way or the other to prove that I am somehow a good person (seriously).

To be honest, I have my own version of kindness. My kindness is not selective. I am kind to every one regardless of everything but the intention of this article is not to brag or anything but to explain the truth behind doubts.

As known to many I am Rodel Mandia, and I am just a simple Filipino citizen currently living in the broad area of Metro Manila. I am not rich nor living in a castle. My family belongs to the poorest of poor during our early times in Mindoro. Out of seven siblings I was the fifth and the only one who stopped the culture of "fear of education" in our family. I called it "fear of education" because my parents are so afraid to send us to college. I have 3 elder brothers and two of them are so eager to finish college. I can remember they talked to our parents before to ask their permission to attend college but my mother is so negative that time and she thinks that my brothers will not be able to overcome the challenge of college education. My mother is not confident academically and financially to my brothers so she refused to send them to college. Since my brothers can do nothing about the situation they just agreed with my mom and went to Manila to work for our family where they also met their spouses. During that time, I'm just a simple elementary student, but I can already understand whats happening around me. I know its not the right time to narrate my life story but I can sense the necessity for you to judge me fairly.

During high school, I focused my time in study although sometimes I cant help but be lonely because all my elder siblings already left for Manila so I was the eldest (child) in our house.I promised to myself that I will follow them because I'm missing them so much. I used my brain to impress my parents specially my mother. I studied really hard to give them the impression that I can do it in college. I graduated First Honorable mention from High School that I think changed my parents perspective to their children (I hope). My mom somehow, changed her perspective towards us. When I ask her permission that I want to go to Manila to pursue my study, she did not refuse because she think I cant, its just that, our family is not financially stable and we cant afford the college education specially in Manila. That time, I am full of hopes, full of determination and full of dreams though I'm still puzzled on how I am going to survive college in Manila but I'm not afraid as long as I am with my siblings. I told my mother that I will live to my ate's house in Manila while studying while working. I know I already convinced my mom that time that's why she didn't add anything anymore to the conversation but rather she just asked me to pack my things the next day and she will deliver me to Manila.

I cant explain my feelings that time, It's a mix emotion, I'm unsure of what is waiting for me in Manila but I'm not afraid. I'm confident that I can do it. I trust my self very much.

When I reached Manila April 21, 2005 with the help of my elder siblings I wasted no days to look for school where I can study Nursing. Luckily my brother in law thta time is working as LO along Sacrepante St. Mandaluyong City where Rizal Technological University is located, He immediately inquired upon learning it and there everything started. I really can feel the presence of God during that time because He let me pass the entrance exam considering that I wasn't able to answer the last 2 subjects out of 5 due to time pressure. I am so hopeless that time but when the result came out I saw my name with an average score of 78.32%. Yes, that is too low for me but I don't care, what more important is that I got in. I passed the exam. Aside from that, RTU is just within the vicinity of our house so I don't have to spend much money for my daily fare.

Of course everything did not just happened as smooth as you think.

I wasn't able to take Nursing course because its too expensive and I know I cant afford it. Remember my family can't support me that much, we don't have extra money to send me to college. So since I insisted this, I should be responsible for this.

I took up Bachelor of Science in Computer Engineering instead since its more in-demand according to people I met. Initially I thought, its just a 4-year course so I thought I can take it in 3 years but later on I realized, I was wrong. Its not a four years course but 5 and I cant take it in 4 years. Since enrollment is already done and I can no longer afford changing my course, besides I still have to look for a job to support my study I just "went with the flow". I always think, God has a big purpose of sending me in that university and in that course and I know its for my own good.

While waiting for the school year to start, I babysit my nephews and nieces in my ate's house while she is working to help her. But when the school year started, I already look for the job that can give me allowances since I cant afford always asking my sister to provide all my expenses.

I got hired as a Service Crew in Jollibee Megamall building B in SM Megamall. I was assigned in Chicken Joy station but since being a service crew is a contractual job my contract expired after six months so I have to look for another job. The good thing is that my school schedule is still not so hectic since we are still dealing with minor subjects so its just a repetitions of our high school subjects.

When my contract expired in Jollibee Megamall I applied to Jollibee Guadalupe EDSA

Jollibee Guadalupe ESA

There is where all my challenges started. I spent almost my entire college life here. Since this is a 24-hour store and my school schedules are always in the afternoon with some subjects in the morning my work schedules are always graveyard. From 11PM to 6AM I will be working in the store and then will be home at 7AM to review (specially during exam) and then sleep ( we have free foods at work) until 10AM to attend my class at 11:30AM to 7PM. Sometimes sleeping is skipped during holidays due to large number of people eating in Jollibee and we need to extend time not to mention those instances wherein the next shift crew is late or AWOL. That became my life cycle for 4 years which luckily I was able to overcome.

I survived college because of Jollibee and of course my siblings' support. When I was in college I saw how I influenced my family. They became stronger in terms of challenges specially my father, he became more father to all of us. I saw how he really wanted to help me finish my course. He worked hard to provide even a little for my college while supporting our entire family. My mother became more open minded and trust her siblings ability even more.

My family admired me a lot and extended their love and pride for me for making it, which gave me another challenge to strive harder in life but this time to the real world. When Im walking to receive my diploma during the graduation ceremony, Im actually out of my mind. I was on the first day of my college life, I remember I was sitting on the bench beside the "quadragle" in our school. I'm facing the stage and imagining myself wearing a black toga with orange collar marching with my parents to get my certificate. When I am about to get my certificate I congratulated myself internally. I told to myslef:

Congrats Del, ang galing mo!

After graduation, I never had any plan aside from getting a job that will help me drag my family up and get them from the situation that we used to be before. I applied to different IT companies around the metro and luckily I never had a hard time getting a job. I was able to get a position in Accenture Philippines after my graduation that marked a big changed in my life. I was able to earn bigger than my expectations as a fresh graduate without hands on experience in the field. I was able to provide my family's needs. I was able to send my youngest brother to college who is now also working (as of 2015 he is already on-board bound to Taiwan, he is a seafarer).

Of course everything did not started that easy. I started as Data Center Operations Coordinator in Accenture wherein my job is not really IT works but an admin things but due to my determinations and willingness to learn my leads noticed my interest and promoted me after a year that brought me to a new role doing the real IT works which is currently my expertise (I'm working now as a Subject Matter Expert for that branch of IT)

But just when I though everything is so perfect already and that everything goes the way I want it come a challenge that moved my entire family. My parents totally separated months after graduation. I realized, its really true that you can't be too happy in this life. Even once in my life I never thought that the family that I always admire, always loved and will continue to love until the day I die will come to this chapter that no one in the right mind will ever consider having.

I broke down, I always ask God:

My Lord why? why us? What do I need to do? what else should I need to do? I went through thick and thin, I suffered a lot to make my family together. I sacrificed a lot of things in my personal life just to keep my family together but how come we still need to be broken?

Just like my family, who all of the sudden got broken my dreams were also subsided. I lost my focus, the momentum. Everything fell into pieces and I don't want to fix it because I don't know how.

Until such time that I realized, you really cant force someone to be what you want them to be if he or she is not really into it. You will never find happiness in forcing someone do things you want them to do.

When I realized that I can no longer do anything to have my family back to its normal form, I stood up again. I know I will never be whole again, I will always be broken but I'm this time I'm prepared and willing to accept the changes. I just focused my attention to the other members of my family who are still looking at me with utmost respect, my siblings, nieces and nephews.

Our family is still broken as of writing, my father already has his new wife because my mom refused to be with him anymore after series of family talks and asking for forgiveness.

Now, what is the purpose of this article?

This is to simply discuss my simple back ground in a high level way. To let you understand why sometimes I behave differently. To give you a little background on how are you supposed to comment about my personal life and judge me not according to the page where you get in to my life. Thank you.

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Why does God allow relationship breakups?

There is a reason why this happens. One reason can be found in Ecclesiastes 3:1 and this is what you can read.

"For everything there is an appointed time, and an appropriate time for every activity on earth: "(Ecclesiastes 3:1, Net Bible)

We know that the break up is one of the causes of young people getting desperate. Worse, they neglect their own bodies and some even commit suicide because it is difficult for them to accept reality.

Indeed, it is hard to become a victim of breakups but in Ecclesiastes 3:4, here is what we can read.
"a time to weep, and a time to laugh;"(Ecclesiastes 3:4, NRSV)

If we read the Holy Bible and listen to the wisdom of God, He really allows this to happen to our youth. It is only Satan who discourages people to overcome all problems that come to their lives. The Bible says you will not be given trials that you cannot cope with.

"He will not let you be tried beyond what you are able to bear."(1 Corinthians 10:13, Net Bible)

For some reason, those who experience this situation can serve as inspiration to others. You cannot understand any situation if you will not experience it.
It happens since God wants to show there is destiny for everyone (except for those who are meant to become priests and nuns).

"Do not be afraid, because from all eternity Sara
has been destined to be your wife. "(Tobit 6:18, Christian Community Bible)

We need to have acceptance. This cannot be rushed. However, if we implore God’s guidance, he will lead us and show us His plans for us.

"For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope."(Jeremiah 29:11, NRSV)

He is the best provider of partners.

"House and wealth are inherited from parents,
but a prudent wife is from the Lord."(Proverbs 19:14, NRSV)

Source: Bro. Duane Facebook post.

LOVE doesn't hurt. Expectations and betrayal does!

Sa buhay natin, may mga pagkakataong dadaan tayo sa mga pagsubok na iisipin nating parang wala ng katapusan. Minsan pa nga sa sobrang mapagbiro ng tadhana, sinusubok nya ang pinaka mahinang parte ng buhay mo. Iyon bang kung saan pa iyong bagay kung saan ka pinaka mahina e doon ka pa madalas atakihin ng tadhana na para bang nananadya. Nakakainis diba, pwede ka naman nyang atakihin sa ibang bahagi ng buhay mo doon sa kabisadong kabisado mo na. Iyong tipong may laban ka. Iyong patas kang makakalaban. Iyong tipong kahit matalo ka maluwag mong matatangap na ginawa mo na lahat ng kaya mo.

Pagibig, iyan ang isa sa pinaka mahinang parte ng buhay ko kaya madalas ito rin ang bagay na nakakapagpapatak ng luha ko. Kaya naman kahit paano pinagaaralan ko na rin na labanan ang mga pagkakataong pinahihirapan ako ng pagibig.

Sometimes, its better for two persons to break so they can grow up. It takes two grown ups to make the relationship work.

Pero siguro nga, ina allow ng Diyos na mangyari iyon for a single purpose na gusto Nya na maging handa ka sa buhay ano mang pagsubok na dumating. Yung tipong kahit anong pagsubok na ibigay Nya e kayang kaya mong harapin. Gusto ka Nyang maging malakas sa lahat ng aspeto kasi sabi nga sa Bible:

1 Corithians 10:13 (NRSVCE)
God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength, but with the testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it.

Kaya dapat nating pasalamatan ang Diyos sa lahat ng nangyayari sa atin maging pagsubok man ito o hindi. Ito ay nagpapatunay na ang Diyos ay buhay na buhay at hindi Sya nakakalimot. He is working night and day to ensure that we are on the tract that He prepared for us.

#GodisInControl #NoLoveLifeNotaProblem #AlphaandTheOmega #1Cor1013

Sunday, November 13, 2016

INDRA Philippines is Looking for YOU!

Are you currently fresh graduate, unemployed with IT background or you are employed but looking for a better opportunity (locally or internationally) outside your current organization? Well, Indra Philippines is looking for you. If you have the following capabilities and experiences, then what are you waiting for? Send me your updated CV and lets start from there.

NETWORK ADMINISTRATOR (WILL BE ASSIGNED IN DUBAI)

Duties and Responsibilities

Establishes network specifications by conferring with users; analyzing workflow, access, information, and security requirements; designing router administration, including interface configuration and routing protocols.
Establishes network by evaluating network performance issues including availability, utilization, throughput, goodput, and latency; planning and executing the selection, installation, configuration, and testing of equipment; defining network policies and procedures; establishing connections and firewalls.
Maintains network performance by performing network monitoring and analysis, and performance tuning; troubleshooting network problems; escalating problems to vendor.
Secures network by developing network access, monitoring, control, and evaluation; maintaining documentation.
Prepares users by designing and conducting training programs; providing references and support.
Upgrades network by conferring with vendors; developing, testing, evaluating, and installing enhancements.

Minimum Qualifications

Candidate must possess at least a Bachelor's/College Degree , Computer Science/Information Technology, Engineering (Computer/Telecommunication), Science & Technology, Engineering (Electrical/Electronic) or equivalent.
Required skill(s): Network Administration.
At least 7 year(s) of working experience in the related field is required for this position.
Preferably Supervisor / 5 Yrs & Up Experienced Employees specializing in IT/Computer - Network/System/Database Admin or equivalent.

UNIX SYSTEM ADMINISTRATOR (WITH BMC PATROL, BMC TRUESIGHT)

Duties and Responsibilities

Proven experience in Unix and Linux systems, Shell & Bash Scripting programming for at least 5 years. - Proven experience in any Monitoring tool: BMC Patrol, BMC TrueSight, HP_OV, Nagios, and in any of SW deployment, at least 5 years.
Proven experience working as a System Admin in a large framework and clients for at least 5 years. - Excellent communication skills.
Be able to work in a team with minimal supervision.
Be able to establish communication with clients, users, suppliers and other 3rd parties.
Drive and integrate developments within a business process based requests from the client.
Keep up to date with the latest technologies according to the continuous improvement process established
Responsible of maintenance service of BMC products based on monitoring (BMC Patrol or TrueSight)

Minimum Qualifications

With high knowledge in Unix programming, Shell Scripting and Unix and Linux systems.
With knowledge and proven experience in fault monitoring systems in any of the below tools: BMC Patrol, TrueSight, BPPM, Proactive Net, Nagios, HP_OV.

ORACLE DATABASE ADMINISTRATOR (BALINTAWAK, CALOOCAN)

Duties and Responsibilities

Administering Oracle databases in the production environment
 Creation and deletion or database end-users schema as needed
 Granting approved access and database privileges
 Creating, updating and maintaining database objects as per end-users requests and business needs
 Administering all database objects, including tables, clusters, indexes, views, sequences, packages and procedures.
Monitoring status Oracle databases in the production environment
 Ensuring the availability of any Oracle database accessed by end-users
 Checking the good performance of any registered Oracle database accessed by developers, testers, or the end-users
 Reporting to his/her supervisor and recording any database incident
 Troubleshoot Oracle database issues
 Communicating with end-users and other required parties for troubleshooting and fixing Oracle database issues
Monitoring performance of Oracle databases in the production environment
 Generating daily or weekly Oracle database AWR and ADDM reports for troubleshooting database performance issues from main production systems
 Perform application tuning and performance monitoring
 Performs ongoing tuning of the database instances.
Monitoring the overall performance of the Oracle Database Server
 Checking the availability of the production database on a daily basis and particularly the health status of the DBs
 Alerting and notifying respective team lead and required parties whenever a production issue arises
 Extracting system data and generating weekly reports of overall system performance per business areas
Liaising with Oracle Support as needed for following up any internal Service Request related to Oracle database
Performs the capacity planning required to maintain the databases. Monitor and ensure that DB storage can accommodate large volume of data, archived log files, and backup files.
Patching Oracle database environments as needed
Installation, configuration and upgrading of Oracle server software and related products as needed.
Perform backup and recovery of the Oracle database.
Monitoring Data Guard to ensure that it is working fine
Resolve any Data Guard related issues.

Minimum Qualifications

Candidate must possess at least a Bachelor's/College Degree , Computer Science/Information Technology, Engineering (Computer/Telecommunication), Science & Technology or equivalent.
Required skill(s): Oracle.
At least 4 year(s) of working experience in the related field is required for this position.
Applicants must be willing to work in Caloocan.
Preferably 4-6 Yrs Experienced Employees specializing in IT/Computer
Network/System/Database Admin or equivalent.

TEST ANALYSTS

Duties and Responsibilities

Test instance/ test environment preparation
Test data preparation, setting up of user roles and responsibilities
User admin on test instance/ test environment
JIRA access admin and JIRA project setup
Issues reporting/ analysis using SQL
Test artifacts review and quality control
Understanding and documenting the test requirements
Monitor the quality gates (entry and exit criteria, quality of the deliverables)
Develop and maintain test scripts, execute test scripts, manage tracking/reporting systems
Record/report status of problem/issue/bug in issue tracing database
Drive the testing process by through development and execution of test scenarios
Document diagnostic steps for troubleshooting reported problem/issue/bug resolution
Follow-up with users to ensure that their needs have been met
Quality and test advocacy and resolution of issues that impede the test effort.

Minimum Qualifications

Knowledge of all aspects of software engineering process;
Experience in a wide variety of testing efforts, techniques and tools;
People skills especially diplomacy and advocacy skills;
In-depth knowledge of the software testing domain, system or application-under-test;
Programming and debugging skills
BS / BA in Computer Science
Planning and leadership/management skills;
Relevant experience in quality assurance particularly performance or automated testing experience using OATS;
Programming skills using Java;
Ability to interpret log files and identify performance bottlenecks;
Ability to make recommendations for performance issue fixes;
Diagnostic skills using tools such as JProfiler;
Candidate should be willing to work on a contract basis

JUNIOR .NET DEVELOPERS

Duties and Responsibilities

Participate as a member of development team.
Complete development of units with designs prepared by more senior developers.
Participate in code reviews.
Prepare and executes unit tests.
Apply growing technical knowledge to maintain a technology area (e.g. Web-site Development).
Develop and optimizes high quality code
Follow established standards within the defined technical environment (for potentially reusing existing applications, code snippets or software when appropriate)
Stay current on established tools, techniques, and technologies

Minimum Qualifications

BS degree (computer science or equivalent preferred)
Candidate must have at least 1-2 years of experience with .NET technologies such as MVC, WCF, C#, and EF.
Candidates must have at least extensive knowledge on the different .NET syntax and on the .NET Framework
Knowledgeable on C# 4.0 and below
Familiarity working on HTML/CSS/JavaScript
Familiarity on Agile and other SDLC
Experience on TFS and GIT
Contribution to open source development projects
Mobile app development (Android, iOS, Windows)
Good grasp of Javascript, jQuery, AngularJS, Knockout, and other client side frameworks

MID .NET DEVELOPER

Duties and Responsibilities

Participate as a member of development team.
Complete development of units with designs prepared by more senior developers.
Participate in code reviews.
Prepare and executes unit tests.
Apply growing technical knowledge to maintain a technology area (e.g. Website Development).
May perform unit design.
Configure end-user or enterprise systems designed by more senior technologists.
Design, develop, and optimize software code to meets the client's business requirements within the defined technical environment
Perform the necessary testing to ensure that solutions perform to specifications
In an Application Management situation, undertakes ongoing support, monitoring, troubleshooting, change and enhancements to applications
Align work product with the phases and requirements of the product development cycle and table-driven processes to ensure effectiveness, consistency, quality, and enhanced productivity
Provide mentoring and guidance to junior employees
Stay current on established tools, techniques, and technologies

Minimum Qualifications

BS degree (computer science or equivalent preferred)
Candidate must have at least 2+ years of experience with .NET technologies such as MVC, WCF, C#, and EF.
Experience on C# 4.0 and below
Worked with MVC, WebAPI, WCF, Entity Framework or nHibernate
Worked on HTML/CSS/Javascript/Jquery/ Knockout or Angular
Experience on Agile or other SDLC
Experience on source control like TFS and GIT
Contribution to open source development projects
Mobile app development (Android, iOS, Windows)
Experience on Biztalk development
Experience on SharePoint development
Familiarity on common design patterns
Familiarity on SOLID Principle
Experience on Secure Development Lifecycle

SERVICE DESK ANALYST

Duties and Responsibilities

Act as single-point-of-contact (SPOC) and provide first level technical assistance for
user's IT inquiries, incidents, concerns, service requests etc.
Provide information to customers which includes walkthroughs or introducing them to available information sources such as QRGs and FAQs.
Answer and log end-user calls through incident ticketing system.
Escalate/endorse incidents to onsite support or SMEs if unable to resolve.

Minimum Qualifications

Graduate of Bachelor course preferably Information Technology or any related course.
One year of working experience as technical customer support or new graduate.

Or you can also choose from the below positions:

By joining Indra Philippines, you will be enjoying all the benefits that "ONLY INDRA" is offering. I can say "ONLY INDRA" because I've been from different Multi-National IT companies in the country but I never experienced having this kind of benefits wherein it will up to the employee on what benefits will fit their "wants" or "needs". Everything will be discussed to you during the interview of course all of these benefits are on top of you monthly basic. Hurry up, lets all develop our capabilities while enjoying and earning.

Note: You can send your email to me: rmandia@indracompany.com. Please indicate your desired position on the subject line. Thanks.

See You! :)

Sunday, October 23, 2016

Mi Ultimo Adios

A movie has to have a back story for the audience to understand what happened in the past that brought the story to its current situation.

-Rodel Mandia

Mi Ultimo Adios (My Last Farewell) - a poem wrote by no less than the Philippine's National Hero Dr. Jose Rizal on the eve of his execution dated December 30, 1896.

I know I already bid goodbye to the person I loved in the past and I promised to not write anymore about that person. I actually moved on from that tragic experience and ready to commit myself once again in case the opportunity comes but I think there is a necessity to write this article for the benefits of every body's (those involved) peace of mind.

Two months ago, I received a comment in one of my articles wrote by "Anonymous" and upon close reading I know its Jona. She said she is "missing me" and that "she made a wrong decisions in letting me go before". That time I know I'm ready to befriend her so I unblocked Jona in all my social media accounts and tried to get in touch with her again. Upon opening the door again, I came to know that she and her office-mate turned boyfriend are still happily together in fact they are allegedly getting stronger that made me feel happy because at least everybody is happy now.

It was during that time that I still have no idea about this "office-mate". What is his name, how does he looks like, How rich he is etc etc.. Stuffs like that but I don't really care that much since he is not the reason why I opened the communications again.

I was carried away by the reality that everything is fine now, that we can now be friend and I forgot to consider the fact that I am already a stranger. I felt so ashamed when I realized that so I stopped being "feeling close" to Jona and just let everything goes the way it has to be.

I have a very dear online friend name Aldrey (here you go I mentioned you already..lolz) - an IT student from Far Eastern University (wow talino pre ah. joke.. hahaha) and an avid fan/reader of this blog (sabi nya. haha). He is very cool (sa sobrang lamig muka ng bangkay. joke :P) and friendly (without benefits..joke lang pare..lol) no doubt we became friend. He really loves reading, in fact he is also a reader of many other blogs specifically IT blogs like Yuga Tech, WhenInManila, PinoyMoneyTalk and Unbox to name a few.

It was one time that Aldrey is browsing the net when he accidentally went to a specific blog site which initially he called "the most emotional blog he ever visited" because all topics being discussed there are the failed relationships of the owner of the blog. According to Aldrey he actually cant remember but he was able to leave a comment there sympathizing with the author which was immediately caught the attention of the owner (Lets call him Regie) of the blog. To cut the story short, they became friend also, and one time while they are talking online, Aldrey mentioned about my failed love story written in this blog because Regie's story is nothing new to him and the same story has already been published so he gave the URL of my blog to Regie and there everything got more complicated. Regie discovered that my story is actually part of his story, that I am Rodel Mandia the EX-boyfriend of his current. He read my story and what amazed me is that he was able to verify it. He seconded that everything I wrote are true and what even more frustrating is that He is undergoing the same thing as if their love story is just a repetition of our previous mistake. After realizing those things Regie immediately searched me in Facebook and send me messages and there we became friend until today.

I realized, Jona really didn't learn anything from me. She didn't improved, I failed to make her be a better person after all. Regie even told me that he caught Jona cheating many times, even meeting with her "flirtmates" in their "monthsary" (my gad that's excruciating.). I pity Regie very much because he is just a victim also of a person we both loved. I always thought that after me Jona will be a better person, that she will be very responsible already, no more third parties, no more side trips but I was wrong. I cant help but think that there is a possibility that during our time she also have that attitude which I didn't caught because we are in long-distance-relationship. If she can cheat with someone she is always with (as in everyday) then what more to me who is miles away from her? Now Jona's integrity is really in question. I really cant imagine how she can sleep at night with those burden in her subconscious mind. Maybe she is just used to it that's why for her everything is just normal thing.

And there comes another chance that we had a conversation in twitter just recently (we don't talk anymore btw, I also don't have Facebook) wherein I ask her how is everything after the Typhoon since their place experienced Signal Number 5. Initially its just a joke as we used to have before whenever we talk and for me its just a plane joke. For the complete conversation please refer below:

By reading this, its very easy to conclude that she got affected by what I said which is actually "A JOKE". We are joking initially and I don't know why she got affected by a joke and I immediately offered my apology after sensing that I offended her but she said "NEVER MIND" (which is actually rude). When she added her last messages is where I already retaliate. That is too much stretch of hallucinations. I cant see anything wrong with what I said then what is that stupid arguments? After that, she twitted a blind item in her twitter saying "Ganun na pala" and the twits go on and on with the last one saying "Kalma ka lang kapatid.. ;)"

Wait.. what? I'm sorry? Did I read it right? Wow! haha. (If you will confront her about that, she will definitely deny that. She will deny that, that twits are intended for me. That's how she handles issue")

But after all, I ONCE AGAIN took the initiative to step down to her level and finish it once and for all but this time for good,

I know this decision is also too much but this is the very least thing I can do after all. I entered into the picture again with the intention of offering my friendship and remove the barriers between us and everyone around us but I never thought everything will end in another tragic incident.

If Jona will be able to read this - again I have nothing against you. I have no reason to hate you because I'm done hating you. I'm just sad that you never really know me after all. You never know that being comic is natural to me. I also want to apologize if I have to do this, because I don't want to lose my respect for you. You still deserves respect and I wont withhold you with that. Lets just forget everything that happened. I cant erase them anymore but I can still continue what I have started before I entered into the picture for the second time.

I will exit again but this time for good. Again I'm so sorry (really sorry) whatever I have caused you and I hope one day you find the reason to forgive as I found the reason to forgive you before. Maybe not today, tomorrow or even in the coming days, weeks, months or year but someday. :)

Regards,

Rodel Mandia

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Minsan may mga bagay na akala natin mabuti para sa atin, akala natin ok lang, tama lang, walang masama pero hindi pala, mali pala, may masasaktan pala.

Sa muling pagtatagpo ng landas namin ni Jona, nalaman ko na hindi ko na pala dapat binuksan pa ang nakaraan, hindi ko na pala dapat pang hinayaang magtagpo pa ang aming mga landas, pinagsisisihan ko talaga ng lubos ang ginawa ko dahil hindi ito nakatulong sa kahit na kanino kahit sa akin sa halip naka gulo lang ito at ngayon nga ay kailangan naming maghiwalay muli (not in good terms). Sana talaga. Sana Sana Sana. Pero nandito na e, wala na akong magagawa kahit magsisi pa ako ng laulit ulit hindi ko na maibabalik ang lahat ang magagawa ko na lang ay tangapin na I made a wrong decision again which I will regret for the rest of my life maybe but the good is I still have the chance to correct my previous mistake and made everything a lesson moving forward. Thank you for reading. God Bless You Dear Friends :)

#InMyEx

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Sometimes, Holding On makes more Damage than Letting Go!

Saturday, September 10, 2016

My Father's Birthday 2016

Ever since I graduated from college I already promised to myself that I will go home to my hometown in Mindoro every September 1 to celebrate my fathers birthday.

From 2010 to present I am doing this oath without missed which I started as only me due to financial constrain until such time that I can already bring my whole family back home to celebrate with me.

This year 2016 marks a very special beginning of a new chapter of our life as a family. We were able to build our own house in the center of our Barangay in Loyal, Victoria Oriental Mindoro which we always dreamed of back in our childhood times.

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Since September 1 this year is Thursday I need to file 2 days vacation leave in my office to give way for this vow. The good thing is, my bosses are good enough to approve my leaves although I'm still not regular employee in my new company.

Since our youngest (bunso) and our second eldest are no longer in the country I only went home with my two sisters and my niece.

We took bus from Boni Ave to Batangas Port that lasted for 4 hours.

From Batangas Port we then took Ship which unfortunately longer than the normal speed. It took us 5 hours to be ported to Calapan City port for unknown reason which usually takes only 2 hours.

However, we're able to take UV express the moment easily after porting.

I'm already so sleepy that time as the UV travels to Victoria Oriental Mindor since that's already around 5AM (September 1, 2016) but the moment I am already about to sleep is when my sister wake me up for drop off.

From Victoria center our last trip was through tricycle to our Brgy called Loyal which is located at the foot of the mountain Tralala. :P

Upon reaching our new home a very dear kiss and hug to our very dear Father.

Since its already his birthday and the construction of our house is still on going I took the initiative to take charge of everything for his party.

With my two sisters, we return to the town center to buy the foods for a small party celebrations and since its already a last minute we ended up buying ingredients for pancit and pinudot which are very common in our Barangay.

Usually in our small community, every party is being done in the afternoon as it is the only time that people are all alive (gising na gising ika nga) so they can really come to our new house so at around 3pm the people started to drop by.